The ice crusted snow is an eggshell
over the yard. It will crack and robins will appear. Puffed up robins growing
fat from feeding on worms that grew fat feeding on grass clippings and shredded
leaves of my last few mowings. Some
growing fat from the eggs that grow inside them. For now, I release rock salt
crystals one at a time. I want to see if one will slide all the way to the
woods.
Nose close to the driveway, I sniff
around looking like my German Pinscher, Auggie tracking moles. I try to
determine if the briny water I’ve made from ice and rock salt smells like the
beach. I’ve always had a nose for the beach. It can tell if I’m moving closer
or away miles from the shore. The water heals me It always has. Cuts, acne,
depression all fade when soaked in the breaking waves. I like to imagine I was
a sea creature in another life. I’ve never been much of a swimmer so I wasn’t a
fish. Maybe a bird. The delicate dance and piping of the plover or the clumsy
waddle and piggish grunt of a pelican? Most would say my temperament points at
crab. I wouldn’t mind crab. Shore crabs are quick, industrious and even when in
large groups go about their business alone.
I can see myself as a fiddler crab menacing anything that comes my way
with a claw bigger than my body.
Rock salt is tenacious and finds
small dimples or bumps to slow it down. It dies in a tiny ocean it makes from
itself and the ice. So I slide pinecones, which go nowhere. I guess their not
quite cylindrical shape is to prevent them from rolling too far. I know a
pumpkin works and car keys have gotten pretty far in the past. The keys were
not on purpose and were very difficult to fetch off of an inch of slippery ice
that I had to traverse. Going down and stopping was rough. Coming back up was
nearly impossible. Hats off to Tenzing Norgay and Edmond Hillary. Getting up
this little hill almost did me in let alone climbing Everest.
Once the
ice was just a little higher than the bottom of the storm door leading to this
flat part of the driveway where our cars, snow shovels and salt were. I had to
go out the front door and slide down the hill on my butt towards our cars. Hatchet
in hand, I looked like a Viking berserker raiding England. I slid into the cars
feet first and used the hatchet to free the back door.
The briny water doesn’t bear the
scent of the sea. I mix in some mushy leaf bits since I haven’t any sargasso or
sea grass and jump in the puddle. Maybe the grinding of the salt into plant and
the spread of droplets in the air will bring the ocean here to Beech Road. That is the ultimate irony of all this. The
name of my street is a homophone of the place I love to be. It’s not four
hundred miles. It’s just one letter.
Anthony, I really enjoyed reading this post. The way you've meditated on rocks of salt is so simple and beautiful. Your initial attempt to smell the ocean and your desperate effort to recreate it by adding in mushy leaves at the end was a powerful sensory tactic that tied all of this together really wonderfully.
ReplyDeleteBy letting us in on the irony of your street name you gave the post a great ending!
I've never ever made this kind of connection but it makes so much sense. All the ice and piles of snow and all this salt- it's like we're slushing through a frozen ocean!
ReplyDeleteAre you from a beach area? Did you visit a certain beach all the time? My parents own a condo in South Carolina, and when I smell any sort of crab I think of them and that place, so I'm curious how you got your nose!
I just remembered you're from Italy per our Eden Hall conversation, duh, but I'd still like to learn about what it was like if you were near a beach at any time.
DeleteI grew up in Westchester county in NY. The beach was an every weekend all summer thing. We moved to within 5 miles of the beech when I was 12 and it was a short bike ride away. I'd even go in the winter to listen to the water and smell the air.
DeleteAwesome, sounds like a real beachboy. I think everybody should experience it in the winter when there's nobody out there, just you, the ocean and some seagulls. Thanks for sharing!
DeleteOne of my friends and I used to go to the Bronx Zoo on a wwekday in the winter. It was pretty much us the workers and the critters.
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